Category Archives: Scribblings
Sunset – orange sky
Trees in silhouette
Lights glittering from lakeside houses
Watching the last of the daylight sink into the water
Dozing baby in the backseat
Cardinals game fading out on the radio
I spend a lot of my time waiting.
I wait for Brian to get home from work (or class, or being out of town).
I wait for bed time.
I wait for nap time.
I wait for the laundry to be done. For the dishwasher to finish running.
I wait for bread to bake and dinner to cook.
I’m tired of waiting.
I want to do.
I’m tired of being tied to someone else’s schedule all the time. Be it Lorelei’s or Brian’s.
I want to just be me sometimes. I want to sleep as late as I want. I want to go to the movies or out for a drink and not have to worry about getting home at a certain time.
I will still wait though.
I am lucky to have a perfect daughter. I like being with her, even if it means I don’t leave the house most days.
I am lucky to have a husband who works so hard (and so much) so that I get to stay home.
I am lucky that I got to make this choice.
So, I wait.
I was thinking about this recently and maybe when I don’t have a baby demanding all my attention, I will talk more about it, but here is a poem I wrote junior year of college. Ages ago.