On the Road to Positivity
I am trying.
I am trying to be positive.
Life has really been getting me down recently. For a lot of reasons. Reasons that I am somewhat reluctant to discuss in such a public forum.
Let’s just say, things in the financial area have been going really badly. I thought we had sorted it out, but it turns out we didn’t. I hate mortgage lenders. That extra income you need from us would require me to go back to work full time which means we would have to get full time child care which means that extra income doesn’t do us any good.
Our chimney was finally fixed today. But it turns out the second chimney was in even worse shape. There’s another chunk of money we don’t have gone.
I’ve been sick. Brian’s been sick. He whines like a little girl when he’s sick and it annoys me. He gets a break from everything because he gets to go to work. Where he can close the door and not actually do any work at all if he wants. I don’t get a break. I have to drag my sick-ass out of bed and take care of another human being all day long. I love her so I don’t really mind, but it is exhausting and I never really get a chance to get healthy again.
I’m overwhelmed. I feel like crying all the time. But I am attempting to be positive. I’m on my way. I will focus on the things that make me happy. Like the fifteen minutes I get to myself driving out to Starbucks for a Caramel Apple Spice (What can I say? I’m obsessed). Or reading a really good book. Or this adorable hat that I just received in the mail:
Seriously. Been coveting this since before Lorelei was born.
This weekend I have plans. Substantial ones for the first time in three-plus months. Tonight is dinner out with the girls at the Scottish Arms. Beer! And tomorrow is super secret surprise for friend’s fiancé’s birthday. Maybe a good weekend will help me on my road to positivity.